JACM - ten thousand "i'm sorry"

i am longing for the sound of my friends' laughter.. their endless talks.. silly jokes..

the occasional shedding of tears..

friends.. 

never fail to invent a reason for a get together. just so we can get together.

never fail to bestow a pet name for you (like Panis, Dragon, Aneng, Ech-Ech or Joy To The World).

never fail to make you smile and make life worthwhile, even for just the moment that you are with them.

friends never fail to make you feel welcome, wanted, loved.

friends never fail..

but i failed.

i failed them.. i failed them when i pursued my own happiness..

i failed them when i thought of myself above the good of the group..

i failed them when i overlooked and abused the trust that they placed on me..

i failed them..

and ten thousand "i'm sorry" cannot undo what i've done..

ten thousand "i'm sorry" will not erase my mistakes..

ten thousand "i'm sorry" may never be enough..

but ten thousand "i'm sorry" can start the healing process..

ten thousand "i'm sorry" can bridge the gap..

ten thousand "i'm sorry" is better than not having to say "sorry" at all.

IM SORRY ( x TEN THOUSAND)

number

a million and one raindrops

could never fill me

i'm twenty-three

and still have nothing

there are more than

a hundred ways to die

but i only wanna see you

just for one day

i'm nearly eighty-two miles

away from home

driving at thirty-five kilometers per hour

i'm not in a hurry

i'm excited to see

my fourth sunset off this road

it has been five nights

since i'm away

finding seventy-six reasons

to stay

but found ninety-five reasons

to go

fourteen minutes past bedtime

still thinking of you

i'm anxious of what

i can do

in seven days

for you.