caffeine in my vein

i had never been

truly wide awake

since the last time

i cried because of him

when we inevitably decided to separate.

i am losing blood

for lack of sleep

i am losing sense of time.

i am losing count

of the days

i spent

without him here.

i am flamboyantly over dressed

for this night's shallow hunt.

i am overwhelming 

with sorrowful regrets.

drowning my hatred

with this

double espresso

entwined in my finger.

it would be closing soon.

and i would be left

with the bastard

still running

in my veins.