e-stalker

I decided to put up a Twitter account because of one reason only -- the guy i liked is on Twitter.  I'm an e-stalker of this lovely guy i met personally July of 2012 on a product launch.  And today i found  out  that he has a blogspot account too, which means only one thing -- more ways to e-stalk him.  That may sound creepy but hey - he's the one who's broadcasting his profiles.  What else could a love-at-first-sight-struck girl like me could do but to look for him on line?  And one of the glorious perks of having an internet connection is to be updated on his profiles and know him more! Convenient, living a life vicariously.  

I realized something as i was thinking about him.  I once liked a guy like him.  Is this a pattern?  I like color men.  Hmmmmm....

Well, catch you later, and hope to bump into you here or on Twitter soon.

the real winner

I praise God for the opportunity to know and truly experience great victory and freedom and release last night at a friend's wedding.  The one who hated me with all her guts was there, along with the reason for her to be that upset with me.  God is my true source of strength and power and victory to overcome things that i thought would be too much to handle.  I was relieved when there wasn't any hatred, or jealousy, or anger in me when i saw them and be in approximate distance with them.  I can honestly say that i am victorious and an overcomer through Jesus Christ!

What's bothering me, though, is the fact that if they have really moved on like what a friend told me, then wouldn't it be appropriate that they could approach me and say that everything will be alright now?  That everything has been forgiven, although not forgotten?  That let us leave the former things behind and start being friends again??  But sadly, none whatsoever.  Well, at least for me, i can honestly say that i have moved on, considering the amount of  progress i've made emotionally.

Isaiah 34:16

Chance can be relied on
 Trying to orchestrate
  Alienate old flames
   Promptings of the soul
    Seems wise to heed
     Preprogrammed too soon
      Escaping the need.

Time will tell
 Fade not away
  Crying is ceased
   Concerting with the promise
    Profound revelations evolving amidst.

97M

Ninety-seven million people

Everyone is a blur

With ninety-seven million people

Chances of us ever meeting

Leave it to impossible likelihood.

But take away the 96,999,998

We are not groping in the dark

Take away the 96,999,998

Wouldn't take a rocket scientist

To know

And accept

And understand

That providence

And destiny

And perfect timing

Is working in harmony.

Because ninety-seven million people

Can leave us both paralyzed

And resigned 

And content

Left alone to tend to ourselves

And that could be disastrous.

With ninety-seven million people

There could be 

A lot of possibilities

But none is more tragic

Than when 96,999,998 people

Could hinder us

To come across

And be together.

ride

invite your friends to ride
this wind
feel it touch your face
and drive
through the darkest of the streets
as you see
your lights sliced through it.

happy thoughts drift
free floating
your anger lifts itself
as you laugh
the jokes thrown at you
you don't mind
as you step on the gas.

summer is gone
and you are all alone
the chill is taking place
you feel it in your face
everyone has left
you just sat there by yourself
you hadn't realized
that you're the one who could decide..

Minsan

Dedicated to my friends  (JACM) .. Wherever you may be.

My Cream Puff

When will I see you again, my Cream Puff?

It's been weeks since I first - and last - saw you.

But never the less, I can still remember your face, 
the way you move your hands when you want to make a point, 
the sound of your chuckle,
and that infectious smile on your lips.

Can i say that I'm missing you?

Missing even the sound of your voice,
that I just have to download your song.

Missing even that smile of yours,
even though I have memorized it
and engraved it at the back of my mind.