I'm sorry i can not leave you alone. I just had to e-stalk you and let you know that I'm so proud of you. But that, somehow, rekindled my feelings for you, the emotions that I'm trying to suppress and bury. And at the back of my mind I'm thinking that it may be a mistake. I've been trying to reconcile what it is that i really feel about you. I cried for you even before we get into a loving relationship. I cried during our relationship. And i cried, and am still crying, even harder now that we have dissolved that relationship. Why can't i seem to let you go? Why does my thoughts drift to you every waking hour? You're on my mind the moment my eyes opened each morning, and you're my last thoughts at night. Screw this heart that holds the faintest expectation of ever getting back together! I'm so angry with myself for being so dumb and so stupid and so hopelessly inlove!
...love me again...
Bleeding Pages
from my mind to my fingertips/ be careful treading this page/ you might trample on my spilled guts
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Monday, July 8, 2019
Friday, July 5, 2019
1 stanza
Hindi na muling titibok pa
Ang pusong ito para sa iba
Pagkat pag-ibig na alay
Sa iyo lamang ibibigay.
Ang pusong ito para sa iba
Pagkat pag-ibig na alay
Sa iyo lamang ibibigay.
Thursday, July 4, 2019
The chronic misery of an emotion in distress
Why does it seems like every song in the radio nowadays is about break up, heartbreak or melancholy love? Does it mean that there are a lot of broken hearts scattered in the world today? Or does the universe knows what i am going through and that i am currently swimming in the murky puddle created by my tears? I just wanna know, i just want some answers, because there are still a lot of unanswered questions in my mind that demanded some form of response from me every single day. And i thought this heartbreak, this brokeness, would go away in a matter of time...well i guess it hadn't been that long, but surely it must have let up a little. But why does it feels like it was only yesterday when it was inevitably shattered to pieces? And why, for the love of -, my heart still hopes for the one it couldn't, wouldn't, shouldn't have? And the unending barrage of questions starts to pour out ...and goes on and on unrelenting.
Saturday, June 29, 2019
Jeremiah 38
Sometimes it feels like you're drowning in water. Sometimes it feels like you're going through fire. But other times you're actually sinking down in mud. There are many circumstances that we are going through, and sometimes it seems to drag a long time and that you're drowning or charring or sinking deeper. But fear not. God is always beside you to see you through and to comfort and encourge you along the way. And most importantly, God will save the day.
Tuesday, June 25, 2019
???
The most difficult thing to swallow is the feeling that there's particularly nothing wrong with our relationship, but we ended it anyway...
I'm not strong enough
Not well enough
To see you moving on
Not content enough
Not convinced enough
To let this all go.
I'm not strong enough
Not well enough
To see you moving on
Not content enough
Not convinced enough
To let this all go.
Sunday, June 16, 2019
Still
Here I am thinking about you
Wonderin’ why I ever feel so blue
I’ll never know if you will have a clue
That here I am thinking about you
Hoping that I made it very clear
There’s no one that compares to you my dear
Wanna hold you close and whisper in your ear
Hoping I would make it very clear
That I...
I love you still
Someday is what all we have today
Let our love to find another way
But if not then I will have to pray
That someday I wouldn’t ever have to say
That I...
I love you still
Wonderin’ why I ever feel so blue
I’ll never know if you will have a clue
That here I am thinking about you
Hoping that I made it very clear
There’s no one that compares to you my dear
Wanna hold you close and whisper in your ear
Hoping I would make it very clear
That I...
I love you still
Someday is what all we have today
Let our love to find another way
But if not then I will have to pray
That someday I wouldn’t ever have to say
That I...
I love you still
Tuesday, June 4, 2019
Moon
Sleepless night
The moon is bright
And the world never stops spinning.
Winter,spring
Summer on full swing
And i still can't shake this feeling.
The moon is bright
And the world never stops spinning.
Winter,spring
Summer on full swing
And i still can't shake this feeling.
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